I just spilled all of that to my mom.
I told her exactly what I felt and how I wasn't gonna take it, and saying it to someone is a lot different than typing it out because it made my choke up really bad and I almost cried.
I never cry to my mom about anything.
This was something new.
I have in the back of my mind..maybe he'll come.
I KNOW he wont.
But theres a little voice saying its possible
So I'm gonna sit around my house all day and hope for Mitch. Andy said thats dumb and for me to call Mitch and ask if hes coming so i can go out. I said though that todays ALL up to mitch. I'm not pushing him along or asking him to come.
But I think he may...
no... i really dont
but if he does because andys talking to him, i want my room to be clean considering he's never seen it.
But should I do that? clean my room in hopes that mitch will come? That will crush me more.
But I think I will. Because this is the last day I have to get my hopes up falsly and this is the last day I'm going to be subject to be crushed yet again.
So today I'll get my hopes up, and come tomorrow I'll never have to again
9:51 a.m. - 2004-07-21
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