atlfalcons4 2: its alright.. what doesnt kill you amkes you stronger i guess
atlfalcons4 2: you seem to know a lot about court?
atlfalcons4 2: have you eben there before
No... I havent. And right now I feel so blessed to live the life that I do. I realize right now that whatever shit I go through from time to time some people have it so much worse.
Family situations are so different among so many people and I've always took for granted my happy life, never an argument wiht my parents, 4 kids, close family.
Its really sad right now because im talking to him and he wants to live with his mom in florida but they are going to court because she cant jsut take them and all this councelings coming into play and he says what i told him is what his dad is using as a defense and its pretty clever.... i dont know.
Now he and I are discussing deaths in the family and how they affect us and how its almost worse not to have known the person because then you realize they must have lived such a life, and you you never knew them.
atlfalcons4 2: do you cry a lot
atlfalcons4 2: you can tell a lot about peopel from how much they cry
atlfalcons4 2: and from a handshake
aqCobrA: hahaha
aqCobrA: i do... but for petty reasons and i hate that about myself
aqCobrA: because im am so strong and never get scared and never hurt when i bleed
aqCobrA: but if my feelings get hurt i cry
aqCobrA: im a wuss
atlfalcons4 2: wow thats weirrd
atlfalcons4 2: i hate to admit it but it sounds kind of like me
atlfalcons4 2: but crying a lot says that you are really aware
aqCobrA: does it?
atlfalcons4 2: and in tune with your emotions
atlfalcons4 2: thats what i think anyway
aqCobrA: i believe it, but its so stereotypically a sign of weakness
atlfalcons4 2: an unfortunate by product of todays macho society
atlfalcons4 2: you shouldnt feel weak especially sinc eyoure a girl
atlfalcons4 2: girls that dont cry are..
atlfalcons4 2: butches
good man.... i do like his company.
aqCobrA: i love codes
aqCobrA: and secret signs
atlfalcons4 2: in people they are even more fun
aqCobrA: oh i know! but no one ever picks up on them
aqCobrA: which can be better cuz you can mess with thier minds
atlfalcons4 2: but a bad thing about being aware of sings is
atlfalcons4 2: you can overanalyze and misinterpret
atlfalcons4 2: especially with the opposite sex
aqCobrA: i always do that
aqCobrA: i thought it was a girl thing
atlfalcons4 2: i think girls are sending me signals all too often
atlfalcons4 2: eithe r that or i completely miss the REAL signals
atlfalcons4 2: but i never get it right.
atlfalcons4 2: cause how are yous upposed to tell whats a purposeful sign and what is coincidential?
atlfalcons4 2: impossible i say
aqCobrA: but see then what if you miss them altogether and ur right
aqCobrA: its so complex
aqCobrA: i prefer ignoring signals i think i see, and making my own to lure people in
Wow.....atlfalcons4 2: you know whats really common confusing signs
atlfalcons4 2: probably the worst
atlfalcons4 2: people's profiles
atlfalcons4 2: its so easy to think they are about you sometimes
aqCobrA: im so guitly of that
aqCobrA: i like make fonts match people
aqCobrA: so they KNOW its abou them
aqCobrA: or i put something that they and i talked about
atlfalcons4 2: thats soo mysterious
atlfalcons4 2: do you do that for boys and girls?
aqCobrA: boys
atlfalcons4 2: do they usually pick up on it?
atlfalcons4 2: i guess if you do those thigns it would be hard not to but guys are pretty dumb
aqCobrA: yeah! no! rarely someone will get it
aqCobrA: but they may and i jsut dont know
aqCobrA: because seriously how would you know, they woudlnt jsut say.. hey is that about me?>
atlfalcons4 2: yeah thats true but you probably are expecting some sort of response if you put it in there
atlfalcons4 2: so yo u might see that
aqCobrA: no
aqCobrA: i jsut like installing someting in thier heads
atlfalcons4 2: youre liek some kidn of puppet master
aqCobrA: no, i wish
aqCobrA: i just love subliminal messaging and altering memories and stuff
atlfalcons4 2: a puppet apprentice
atlfalcons4 2: haha
atlfalcons4 2: man i wish more peopel were smarter
atlfalcons4 2: theres so many more levels you can go
atlfalcons4 2: than just talking and responding
atlfalcons4 2: but i barely ever feel like anyone gets there with me
atlfalcons4 2: what do you think of the jones
atlfalcons4 2: despite his occasional gayness
atlfalcons4 2: i think he goes a lot deeper than peopel suspect
aqCobrA: oh i know he is!
aqCobrA: we actaully have a lot of good convos
aqCobrA: about dreams and relationships and mental stuff
atlfalcons4 2: hes good to talk because he really just doesnt care what people think of him
atlfalcons4 2: or at least thats what he tells himself
atlfalcons4 2: while trying to make peopel like him
atlfalcons4 2: hes an interesting enigma
I'm probably gonna stop quoting now
This guy = my second half
it gets more indepth yet like i said.. no more quoting
Shane wants me to come outside... no
Anyways
Work today was the best ever. For two reasons the frist being that i was already in a fantastic mood
the second being that if i had a choice out of the staff to work with i would have picked the exact combination that it was.
I LOVE the people I worked with tongiht. Like i really cant evn explain it. Abby is like me and we crack each other up the ENTIRE time.
I'm loving my life today.
Probably why im writing so frequently too. I donno, my sisters and I were really close this morning and we like ordered a pizza and snuck it upstairs and stuff...
I just cant see reason to complain. I know my life and i know the games people play.
Therefore i am content.
And im out of my pick a fight itch.. im sort of glad
This lady came through the grocery line today... chew all over her front teeth and like the wildest teeth ull ever see, dressed in rags, foodstamps, i admired her.
There were also people with like baggy clothes, people gone tattoo crazy and ones with eyebrow piercings and blue hair.
But you know what they were the nicest out of all the customers.
I honestly think people like that are better people because theyre not afraid not to fit the mold of society. They do what they like and dont give a shit about what the outside world does.
I hope someday I can be that personable and that people can tell that in me. I dont want to be a crazy tattoo lady but i do want to do what i like and not care if someone else is going to like it or not.
I think I'm getting there and a lot of stuff i truely like IS the in stuff so its not much change. But i like myself inside.
aqCobrA: im talking and writing stuff in a notebook and basically my other convos have stopped talkign to me
atlfalcons4 2: i feel special then
atlfalcons4 2: i do that with guitar
aqCobrA: you do!?!?
atlfalcons4 2: ill just sit and play and talk to people
So.. this is my diary and ill copy and paste if i want cuz its for me anyways! haha
(he plays guitar a lot... instead of talking to people!)atlfalcons4 2: i dont think im popular atlfalcons4 2: i think im probably seen as a big asshole atlfalcons4 2: and arrogant too aqCobrA: why you dont seem liek one to me? atlfalcons4 2: i think ive changed a little but atlfalcons4 2: well id ont know much about it because ive never met myself atlfalcons4 2: i think i just give off an arrogant air aqCobrA: cocky? atlfalcons4 2: yeah cocky is a better word atlfalcons4 2: but then.. the people that know me really well say im shy atlfalcons4 2: so maybe im just messed u
Okay so back to something deep and thoughtful in my head.
I'm blanking
SO im gonna go
10:29 p.m. - 2004-07-20
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