Its early and I probably shouldn't be writing something because Sarah's didn't save and mine probably wont either.
I don't know what to think in life anymore.
Like really..... somethings gone
Or wrong...
Or just not processable for me
Life is awesome however. Liz, Sarah and I chilled today and although we had a slight mishap with Matt F.... we had a good time, or at least i did, i hope they did too.
Dt was cool, we met up with Branigan, Rose, Trevor (yeah i shook his hand how badass is that) and then we went to dq... Scott wouldn't give Sarah nuts but it was cool cuz we read the ponies again.
We chilled at Liz's, I felt special cuz i was sharing my gaming knowledge and Trevor said like 'wow ive never met a girl like you before' and Sean was like 'yeah shes one in a million' Sometimes i feel special. Confidence booster but they're not really like on my list, i jsut think its cool cuz ive never met this guy before tonight and he said i was really chill...
Then the Lockhaven guys came and were here for like ....10 mins.... and then they and Sarah left... got back...
She left 40's in the lawn and Liz's mom got mad cuz there were cars driving...
We were gonna walk to Wegmans... buuuut it was scary so we backed out...
So ouija it was
and all i got out of it was
NICK PENIS
NICK BJ
Fuck it
I'm comfy though, in this sweatshirt and hat. They make me confident... I've learned over the years certain clothes make me confident... this is a top choice haha
wow
i have to pee and this is really a worthless entry.
prehaps ill stop but i like to ramble and i not all that tired.
Sarah's on the phone with Chris
I miss Mitch.... two more days haha im pumped. I dont think he'll call me though, actually i know he wont. I wont hear from him till about tuesday or so.
Soooo basicallay... i need to chill with other people till then. blegh, im not going to get started about what thought popped into my mind writing that.
Simply stating it... I have a condition
Called everything in my life is myself in a not myself sort of way. A shared personality
God its like ET and when hes dying Elliot is sick also.
I guess i conformed, its probably both ways
Did I mention i have to pee?
Yeah well I do.
I feel sort of bitchy at my family lately when nothing is their fault. I've got to realize the universe does not bend at my will and i cant always get what i want....
why cant i? i always have
and thats how brats are formed jess, dont think that way
so anyway... its HOLY SHIT FOUR!!!!
i wasnt expecting that... i usually cant do this unless under special terms and being forced....
i know what this means though... the birds will start chirping and i wont be able to sleep, fuck
Well then
good morning
im going to sleep
3:38 a.m. - 2004-07-17
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