I really dont hate anyone. And all the people that I thought I did i only did because they were threatening to me.
I'm not afraid to be me, and theres no reason to be mean to someone who's only nice to you, so i will be nice.
aqCobrA: hey
Andyb423: umm hi?
aqCobrA: i just wanted to say hi to you, maybe talk if you want, i know you dont like talking to me, or something in general but i saw you on and i wanted to say hi and that im glad i know you
Andyb423: are you ok?
aqCobrA: lol yeah
aqCobrA: im just realizing im leaving next year
aqCobrA: and i wont see half these people
Andyb423: and where are you going? i thought you were going to penn state
aqCobrA: and i know you hate me a lot, but i know that i had a lot of good times too and im glad you were part of my life
aqCobrA: yeah but altoona
Andyb423: well honestly i do not hate you, you and i were like becoming pretty good friends until you and mitch got into a fight one day and you were saying some stuff about him and made me mad then i said some mean stuff but i dont hate you. and we go to altoona all the time and you will still be back here on the weekends im sure so we will see you
Andyb423: i am actually thinking about going out to altoona for my first two years and thats been driving me nuts with the whole applying thing coming up here in about a month and i can't decide exactly what it is that i want to do
aqCobrA: why do you want to?
aqCobrA: im really scared to go there
aqCobrA: just leaving everyone
Andyb423: because it would be a change and i kind of want a change
aqCobrA: cuz im really attatched to the peopel i know
Andyb423: well if i do end up going there you and i can just drownd all of our sorrys in our school work and alot of beer
aqCobrA: thats one reason im going, what you jsut said, ive lived here my whole life and i think if i stay here its all ill ever know and when i get out of college i wont know what to do
Andyb423: yeah thats a good point i mean i cant say i know whats its like to live in one place all my life but it makes sence
aqCobrA: its smaller there and more personal, and like i donno i know when im in a big class i can TRY to pay attention but my mind goes out the window and at altoona the classes are like hs size
aqCobrA: and i htink i need htat, i dont wanna fail college just cuz of my lack of attention
Andyb423: yeah i know i have that same exact problem
Andyb423: did you go to the dance with jhonny last night?
aqCobrA: yeah
Andyb423: how was that?
aqCobrA: it was pretty fun , i actaully danced and made a fool out of myself which i tend to be too self consicous to do
Andyb423: haha well look at it this way.. you only have 7 months left here so fuck what everyone says because it is just not a big deal
aqCobrA: thats what i decided
aqCobrA: i think im gonna go make chicken noodle soup, im cold
aqCobrA: ill ttyl andy
Andyb423: haha enjoy see ya
and really this is nothing, but to me its everything.
This is the one person who has really just made my life hell for no good reason, and I'm sure he will again. But for now the one person holding me down has decided to set me free.
2:40 p.m. - Sunday, Oct. 17, 2004
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