Ahhh whats going on in Jessie's life?
Welll back track and fast forward I dont know where to start...
Last night I saw Little Black Book with Ward. Yeah he agreed to a chick flick... sometimes I love me. It was sweet tho I havent chilled with him for quite some time. Its nice now that I'm not some girl thatll do anything for him, im like yeah.... white sweatpants to the movies... not about to dress up.
Little Hazi came over today... she DID make out with Nick... whatever... I've lost all respect for him. I used to look up to him.. now im like... your hitting on the entire freshman class, already got the frosh guys hating you, many of the girls... no respect whatsoever.
I run a lot now. Yep. Story of my life.
I donno its weird how im 'grounded' for lying that i had work yet im allowed to do random stuff.
Today I took Cait to her Wegmans interview, then we went to Wendy's cuz shes addicteddddd.
Went to Burger King, was disturbed by the perverted people in our world today, left.
And today... I talked to Trevor.
Ohhhhh Trevor.
How I love him.
As much as it hurts to talk to him and feel how it used to be, i love it so much. I'll endure my pain, I think I'd hurt worse not talking to him. He has this essence to him that after I talk to him I'm jsut the best person to be around and I'm so happy and funny and... and i really miss him.
And now I have a new fear... what if he forgets me. I dont want him to hurt, but i dont want him to decide one day that it hurts so much hes jsut gonna forget me! Well.... actaully, I dont want him to hurt.
Two months... and I'll see him, perhaps for only a day... but itll keep me going, and the knowing ill see him keeps me going for now.
He's magic
Really.
I hope he gets happier I hate seeing him down.
I wish he'd sleep less and make those 50 million friends.
Ohhhhh Trev-orrrrr
Sigh, its like I snap in and out of missing him like crazy phases.
But i dont think I ever stop missing him when I really analyze my days.
Becase today during Caits interview I was like... I'll get a drink... so I get the Energy, mind fuel, Rain drink, yes... we drank fire... but i wanna dance in the rain.
And when I washed my hair this morning... i thought of shampoo, and i was about to wash wiht soap but then i was like... use fluffy thing.
I even wear socks now with my sneakers.
I live in his clothing!!! Ahh I LOVE those sweat pants! And his blue sweatshirt!
Nope, I live with Trev on the mind... whether im aware of it or nor... hes always on my mind, in my heart....
got me reading the bible, that fine boy did.
cant wait to see him
9:00 p.m. - Monday, Aug. 09, 2004
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