lalala good morning to whoever is reading this.
diaries confuse me because you write them for yourself to get your feelings out and kind of relieve yourself from then but you don't really read them that much. I mean i go back and read some entries and see how i've changed but its not like i write it now to remember my life later.
so i guess although i treat them like theyre for me, theyre really for other people, online or on paper. i have so much online shit that i'm sure these will get lost, i trust paper more even though it's easier to destruct.
my hopes are when i die they become a treasure to someone else, and that they will remember me after i'm gone. so they dont think of me as their grandma or that person who worked wherever... they know i was a person with feelings and adventures like them.
haha alright that was my side note. I'm really bored lately cuz i do a lot.
you know? when you sit around and do nothing a lot and go out only on the weekend kind of like the school year you don't mind sitting at home and being lazy... but then once you do something everyday it's hard to sit around for a few hours?
i'm mad at myself for that nick would kill me. probably cuz hes the best person at doing nothing and finding it perfectly okay.
i slept at his dorm the other night and played xbox with him and ben fail until he got really pissed at ben and kicked him out.
i don't know what to write, i never know what to write in these because sometimes teh deeper i am the less chill i am in person. the more philisophic i am in my thinking the weirder i act when i hang out with people and theyre like grrr youre no fun!
i guess its better to roll with life and not think too much about it.
diaryland has like....died. i used to update everyday.
wtf mate?
12:07 p.m. - 07-06-05
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