I just read Andrea's diary. I'm really glad she appreciates transandentalism and those 4 literary styles as much as i did last year because thats probably the only thing i ever got out of or enjoyed in english 11.
I'm really angry lately and I wish that I knew why. Everything in my life is going perfectly with the exception of my love life which is non-existant. However I dont understand why that affects me so much because most people i know arent in relationships and they are the most normal people I know. I'll take this time to weene myself from the poison loving boys gives me.
Jamie and I are having a drunk day on sunday i believe. I miss hanging out wiht him but i hope we dont jsut fade out again like we always do. I tend to get with him when i think about how long i've known him and how well he can handle my rants and my identity crisises.
GOTTA STOP DISSING PEOPLE JESSSIIIEE!!! I think it was just the nick thing yesterday that threw me over the edge. As much as i love his fights they always trigger something inside of me that blows up inside.
I'd never be with him, he makes me very unhappy.
He's immature and i realize i am too. I think its because i havent had enough real world experience and am so sheltered so i can be giggley and talk about teenage stuff.
I hope that someday i can overcome that. I realize the only way is by getting involved with things that matter but right now i dont have the need.
the whole fam is sick, like sleeping, asking for tea sick.
im well but my nose feels like it has water up it.
i decided today i dont give a fuck what people think and that i would wear whatever. I looked like two (12) which also made me concious of my immaturity. I just wanted to be random tho.
I dont know what to do now. theres nothing really to do. I feel like sleepings a waste of my life. Maybe I'll go to the book store and look for something. And NOT go to the teen reads and romance novels.
Theyre great but making my brain shrink. For some reason I cant concentrate on anything, not even the last thing I said anymore, its THAT bad.
i need to grow up... do you think you can google search that?
3:55 p.m. - 01-12-05
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