And I subjected myself to another day of his pain, and my trust in him got me slashed.
Someday I'll trust someone, who doesnt hurt me.
God I'm gonna miss that kid, its a shame after all we've been through that he's so indifferent to throw it all away because i did this to him! so he will throw it away, i dont know why he hurts himself.
It hurts me too.
But today was a good day. I went to Hillary's, we got dip at uni cuz for some reason i really needed a chew all of a sudden. Watched little Hillary sing. Then we went to Wendys with Jes and Peter.... harassed Peter, drove through the grass and got parked in haha, and proceeded to go see SAW with Hillary hated.
I love scaring people. I thrive off of it. Its the only way to relieve my own fear.
I hope I'm okay, I pray that I will be. If anything all of this has gotten me closer to God becuase when I'm all upset in my room, in my car, where ever mitch end up making me sob day after day, i have to let it out so i start talking....
and you know? every day turns out really good. I know I'm going to be okay.
7:54 p.m. - Sunday, Nov. 14, 2004
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