AHHHHH I feel like I'm in this little box and I just wanna scream!!!!!!!!! GOODNESSSSSSSS
Honestly if I don't have an adrenaline rush or a decent adventure soon I will kill something.
Possibly the most frusterating thing in the world is a perfect happy life. Honestly!!!!! Okay I mean I like being happy but I like this side of adventure and like evilness and if I don't have that i will go crazzzzzzzzy.
I want to go egg cars again, or put gummies in peoples hoods (god I miss that kid to death), I want to get in to debates and argue till I'm blue in the face but never have them give in and tell me im right, I want to set off fireworks at 2 am, I want to steal so much stuff from a store, I want authorities to be suspicious of me and hunt me down just so I can have the thrill of running, I want to sneek out of my house, I want to do something so evil like.
And right now everythings mush! ahhh mush is so horrible. Its everyone doing what I want but not in the like I own the world and command you way but in the 'sure... if you want' way. Like I need you to disagree with me, I need a freaking fight. I need crazy ass music with a lot of screaming, I need scandelous meetings, I need CONFLICT!
I think.. I live off of conflict, like I live my live patching it up so that the world agrees with me. Damnit I hate perfect. And I don't need conflict as long as I have schemes or like adventure.
I'm going to go look for disaster, search for a fight.
11:05 a.m. - Saturday, Aug. 21, 2004
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