Sooooooo
life goes on
I semi talked to trevor. But i was talking to jen... and she was like 'im talking to trev' and im like.....huh
and then i remembered hes always on invisible.... but yet... he didn't IM me?
I don't know he kind of acted like he didn't know me and we were talking like anyone. And i think of our times, and i don't understand it really.
So it sort of made me realize... move on
He has
I still have my SC life.
And so ill live it.
Talked to liz a bit today.... she was weird about nicks party. I felt awkward because i didnt know what to say... I everyones invited but she was all... 'they wont want me there' 'ill pretend i didnt get home till later so i have a reason for not being there with everyone so i seem like i have a life'
Its jsut a party
It doesnt seem like she doenst have a life if shes not there
and shes invited
I mean its her choice so i dont get it
I know shes not good with nick
I guess its up to her.
And so im sleeping at caits with her and jan.
and liz is jelous and its weird.
Cuz when i was gone she was always with sarah and i never cared.
And this is the first time ive done anything with anyone other than trevor.
And she is weird about my doing that.
I donnaaaaaaaa
Shut up, dont make it worse
So thats my life, my day.
It POURED TODAY
And I went and stood out on the deck and the neighbors MUST have looked at me like WHAT a doufus!!!
Maybe I got tan
Anyways it was refreshing and my house is so muggy that rain air was wonderous.
Haha and in the MIDDLE of like tornado wind and crossing pelting rain Chambers comes over to drop stuff off.
What timing she has.
My family and I are really chill now. My parents never said a word about me coming home at midnight the night i last saw trev although when i got home that night they were like WHATTT
I think they understand me more. I'm a bit more open, and even though i think what i tell them about teenage life scares them i think they trust me more? does that make sense? well its how it goes in anycase.
I'm cheering up a lot.
I'm gonna make the cut with Pup for the rebirth of the phoenix in the 7th.
Hopefully he does too. Nick says now that ericas back some damage control can happen. I don't know much about that or her, but hopefully it does. Sarah jsut seems confussed from what nick sent me.
Well todays so boring, honestly... i didnt enjoy sitting in my pjs, it made me feel really heavy and lazy.
Tomorrow I have fake work so i have some outing time to myself. I'm not sure what penniless me will do.
But i beleive its better than sitting around here
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I alone am the one you dont know you need
Take heed feed your ego
Make me blind when your eyes close
Sink when you get close
Tie me to the bedpost
I alone am the one you dont know you need
You dont know you need me
MAKE ME BLIND WHEN YOUR EYES CLOSE
5:28 p.m. - Wednesday, Aug. 04, 2004
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