I want to be like Trevor.
I want to be as strong at heart as he is and have the strenth to put myself before others the way that he is doing with his mom.
He has his choice of leaving and he is going to help his mom out and to be there for her... and yet that means leaving this school and all of his close friends, and he doesn't want to... but he is just for her.
And I know if I were in his sit I'd want to back out and stay, but he leaves in a week and he told his mom he's going so its pretty final.
I want that selflessness. I've never met anyone like him and I wish I could have all the time with him in the world yet I've known him three days, and now he is moving. He said I was like Jesus, I think he's more of a Jesus than I can ever be.
We're sneaking out and egging cars whenever I get back from Hershey. I'm excited I could get in SO much trouble... I love it.
And I never feel stupid saying weird things around him, only mitch was ever like that. And it sucks in a way because I finally find someone I honestly like so much and click with perfectly... and then he moves.
And he told me how im practically perfect and how someday I'll find a great guy and no ones said that stuff to me before.
And I hate how he's leaving and how I feel like I can't even say 'i wish you werent' because that would be selfish of me because he wishes he wasnt, but yet hes doing it
That takes serious strenght, guts, and love.
He has my total respect in every aspect of life, hes funny and outgoing and really open, he likes to have fun and egg cars, he cares about others more than himself, he knows a lot about life and has very similar views as i do, we have the exact same favorite song (I remember you) which is very odd like too weird, we both LOVE cheddar bay biscuits, and we both have fun of tricking andy jones.
This is the perfect guy for me.
I've never met someone like him ever.
This will sound selfish
But I wish he could stay
12:39 a.m. - 2004-07-22
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